Our short conversation

There we were.. hatice, baddin n i.. feasting on the mc donalds.... we started to chat about her school ..She was telling me that one of her friends brought a *guest student* to their class.. Well, they do that.. u can bring guests to school for a day.. we were talking in turkish but i am gonna translate our conversation in english..I decided to tease her a bit...

Anne: If ur friend can bring his friend to school, then u can bring ur little brother to school as a guest for one day then?

Hatice: But anne.. baddin will miss u.. who will look after him? he is small and he wouldnt understand the lessons. (her voice becoming extremely pleading n tear streak in tune hehehehe)

Anne: But hatice, ur brother is not so small.. he can look after himself.. he wont trouble u.. u wont need to look after him all the time..he is an intelligent boy after all.. just like u...

Hatice: But anneeeeeeeee (heheheheehe i laughed inside)

Anne:Ok..ok.. if u dont want him, i wont send him as ur guest.. after all he will join the pre school after the summer this year..

Hatice was so relieved heheheheeheheheh But baddin was a bit dissapointed of course..but he'll recover :0)

Hatice n school.. i try my best to let her have all the opportunities and experiences at her own pace....AS independent as she possibly can from me, her dad n her brother.. So far, together with her classmates, they had visited the baker's shop.. they had watched theatres....went to a virtual cinema..and tomorrow, they will go to a *toy museum*....she missed on the trip to the bookstore..

The thing is.. parents r allowed to join their kids in these activities..As much as i want to join her.. i think it is best for her to have the experience alone.. if i join in, that means she will have to entertain her bro as well.. she wont be free to be herself coz she will be conscious of my presence n that is the last thing i wanna do. I want her to be her.. to be a child.. not an abla (sister)..not a daughter.. i dont want her to have any role...i want her to be her..a carefree child..a child...happy n enjoying her freedom to the fullest..

The fact that she has to shoulder the role as an abla far too soon saddens me to an extent..but for every opportunity possible....i want her to be free of any roles..n just be her.. she needs to be her in order to be happy n confident in life...n may she be...n this is my only wish..